Evolution....

I have come to realise that I am not good at considering new year resolutions in part I think it is because none of us really know what the future has in store for us. Unless you have some very clear directions of what you do or do not want to achieve. Writing resolutions for things that are anything other than 100% within our control to achieve can be difficult to strive for, or at least I think so. For that reason, I believe a good gauge is that we will come out each year, decade etc., happy, healthy, loved and full of love then we can look back and think, yep that was a good year and with that I start to think of the Frank Sinatra song.....

In thinking about evolution, I just think of it as "that's life" full of ups and downs. This also makes me think of the word Family as this is such a huge part of it. I remember as a child I thought I would grow up and be an actress, a singer, an artist, a pawn and a queen! My Mum despaired and said "oach, Joanna, you are daft, you need to grow up and be serious" - we then used to laugh, and I would smack her bum and she would shake her fist both of us being playful.  She knew that I just wanted to see all of the world, and be part of the world in a big way and I hated thinking that the world was a cage as it wasn't and isn't and I have always been curious about it and am forever analysing it, past, present and future.

Family to me plays a huge part of my own evolution, and I love my family so very much. Family for me is  about evolution of me and the experiences that I had growing up that made me and who I was long before I met Anders and attracted his interest. Evolution of how being with Anders changed me because we are so entwined in our lives and we became just that a Royal we (I did say I dreamt of being a Queen)!!! This of course continued with our creation of the the magnificent Dexter and so our family unit evolved and continues to do so for the better because we all support, love and are there for each other.  

Evolution is a slow and continuous process I realise though, and the best I think is still to come although I am not generally known for being patient but patience is something I have learned to savour ;-)

So, with this in mind, I still feel like I did at the beginning of last year where I was embarking upon a journey to a destination or destinations unknown, only now I realise that actually I am just happy being on the journey :-)  I still do not know what the future holds, but what I do have to have is an open heart and mind that somehow my faith in myself and my family will see through the mists of what lies ahead and together, like in the past we will steer our way to capture memories that when we look back on, fill our hearts and heads with a sense of fulfilment and joy.

Evolution is after all is a gradual turning up of a light and dimming of another. Whilst Eureka moments do come and fly you to the moon, they too require evolution. Sometimes this evolution is to convince yourself, and sometimes to convince others, both of which I am not patient with but that is part of my evolution too. It is as a result of this that I hope part of my own evolution will be to just appreciate the ride, wide eyed, bushy tailed :-)